Friday, September 9, 2011

Letting Go of Resentments Part 4

I came across a poem I wrote to Eric in which I tried to get him to understand how my upbringing affected my emotional growth. This is it:

      There once was a rosebud

      Precious and new

      That searched for the sunlight

      But found only the gloom

      Even the raindrops

      Were tainted that fell

      Upon her tender leaves

      No blossoms could swell

      So slowly she withered

      Under black clouds that loomed

      Without some ray of light

      She could have never bloomed

      But one day a warm wind

      Blew up from the sky

      And parted the darkness

Before she could die

A single ray of sunshine

Shone down on her face

Her petals soon opened

Like silken pink lace

Under that blazing hope

That had ever slowly healed

 All her inner beauty

To the world was revealed

It was signed: You are my light, I love you I miss you

Your lady,



  1. Your poem made me cry. I feel that way about my man too. As much wrong as he's done to me, as many things that have gone wrong in our relationship, I love him and probably always will. He essentially rescued me from the depths of despair. Do I still feel the same as I did? No, I don't but that part of me will always remember what it was like to be treated like a queen. He treated me like a queen in the beginning and when things are going sour here, I try to keep that in my mind. Yes, he has his bad points and yes, he has walked on me a lot. But he has never laid a hand on me, not ever. Yes, sometimes I feel as if I traded one bad person for another and it is terrible that I have allowed things to progress to the way they are now. But, in a way, I will always be grateful to him for not hurting me physically. That is a beautiful poem you wrote and I know it came straight from your heart. I can only hope that someday you will find it in yourself to forgive Eric, he is a wonderful man in many ways..

    Love you Lori-YOU ARE MY LIGHT! :)

  2. Your poem just made me cry. I felt that way once about my man. I feel that he rescued me from the depths of despair. At that point in time, he was my "knight in shining armour". He treated me like a queen. Yes, I still love him and always will. If we would split up, I would be devastated. I felt and still do feel that anything was better than being physically abused. Yes, he has his bad points, yes he is self-centered and greedy but I do love him. I hope someday that you can find it in yourself to forgive Eric. Yes, he did something horrible and yes, I know it has left permanent scars on your heart. But, he is a wonderful man that would do anything for anyone. I know he would give someone the shirt off his back if he thought they needed it. He has stood by your side through thick and thin, good and bad. He is one of those "diamonds in the rough".. I hope that someday you and he will find the happiness you both deserve, with each other! I hope you can find what you had before. Anyway, the point of this is just to tell you to never give up hope, there's hope as long as you believe!

    and one more thing: YOU ARE MY LIGHT!
    I love you Lori.. never forget that!


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