Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Disappointment is something we all have to deal with on a regular basis. And as you all know, everything is relative. When I was first injured, I felt as if no one, absolutely no one’s tiny little disappointments meant a thing compared to how miserable an existence I had to deal with. Of course, I see things a bit differently now. I can actually see outside my own head, I can feel empathy for someone else’s pain and suffering, I can hear the tension in another person’s voice and sometimes I can actually catch myself before I do or say something incredibly self defeating, self centered or just plain stupid or rude.
Today I found a note from a fellow quadriplegic and blogger in my comments introducing herself and explaining how she found my blog. The name of her blog is “paralyzed with joy “and she is paralyzed from the NECK down. As I looked for her blog I wondered to myself ”How can someone paralyzed from the neck down be joyful ?”Then I started to check out her blog, I read her profile which I thought was tragic, looked at the photos she had posted that showed a happy, upbeat and pretty young lady even in the hospital shots and read some of her blogs which like her photos reflected a happy, upbeat, well adjusted young woman and yet still possessed that somewhat worldliness beyond her tender late twenties just like every spinal cord injured person I’ve ever met. And I stopped for a moment…and said a small prayer…of thanks for the blessings I have and for my new friend that she may be blessed this day with something special.
These are the things that make it possible for me to believe in God. I was writing a comment to another victim of SCI and this girl read my comment and visited my blog and left me the note. Truly not everything in the world is either a happy or tragic accident or coincidence. I don’t believe it is. To everything there is a season and a purpose under heaven.
I do not feel disappointed today. I feel grateful, happy to have the opportunity to make a new friend, satisfied with the direction my life is going, thrilled to be so busy, comfortable and not in great pain and hopeful for better and better things in my life from the blessings of God, who keeps surprising me because I haven’t suddenly became a “Bible thumper” or anything. However, I certainly am grateful to feel His presence again.