tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-33049599511052455632024-03-14T01:03:21.055-04:00Lori's Story - Life as a Female QuadriplegicLORI'S STORY - Life as a Female Quadriplegic-----The saga of Lori Ann, both before & after the car accident that left her paralyzed from the chest down and took away hands that once created awesome paintings, photograghs, & drawings. The story will include Eric her live in fiancee of 16 yrs , her attendants & caregivers Kristi, Sharlene, and Michelle & her friends and colleagues.queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.comBlogger213125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-7748792232489046332014-01-27T21:02:00.001-05:002014-01-27T21:02:51.671-05:00<div class="MsoNormal" style="text-indent: .5in;">
<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 18.0pt;">Well, I’m finally back after a year and a half hiatus.
A lot has happened and I must say I’m much worse for it. Eric, my fiancée, has
become progressively more ill due to his neuropathy and I’m grieved to say has
developed quite a drug habit<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 18.0pt;">It’s been a downward spiral ever since. If he doesn’t
take all his meds before his next refill, one of my employees steals them. We
must lock them in the attic just to keep them safe which includes mine as well.
<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 18.0pt;">However, he will eventually steal all mine until I
must go through withdrawal each and every month. Our bills are months behind
and we barely have the things we need to survive. <o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 18.0pt;">I know that some of you will accuse me of being addict
but God knows that I’m not and that’s enough. If I had use of my hands I’ve considered
suicide on more than one occasion.<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 18.0pt;">My mother died last April 23<sup>rd</sup> and I still
have not come to piece with that. I’m getting a small inheritance of nine
hundred dollars but I’d rather have mother back. She was 85 God please rest her
weary soul. And my weary heart.<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
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<i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-size: 18.0pt;">Amen and Lord have mercy..<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>
queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-38248731651622650922012-06-19T00:20:00.002-04:002012-06-19T00:23:52.673-04:00Still Alive<br />
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Estrangelo Edessa"; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Sorry I haven’t written in a while, I’ve
just been extremely busy. Not to mention I’m dealing with extra pain,
sleeplessness and desperately trying to fill a position that no one seems to
want. I’ve done yet another photo shoot and had to resend ALL the photos into
the 40+ project. <o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Estrangelo Edessa"; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I’ll get back in swing of things fairly
soon. In the meantime<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>please bare with
me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span 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style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></i></span></b></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-96742440642881902012-05-18T00:54:00.001-04:002012-05-18T00:55:34.090-04:00Time Part 2<br />
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Estrangelo Edessa"; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Then, of course, the inevitable fears
and new social pressures of school begin the end of worry free timeless life.
And as the older we get the faster time seems to speed by. With each new
responsibility and added stressor the little things are taken for granted and
we take less and less time to enjoy and revel in them so time gets away from us
and before we know it years have passed leaving us wondering how they escaped. <o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Estrangelo Edessa"; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>On every birthday we swear to make the
most out of our year but before we know it another birthday is upon us and <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>we allowed kids, work, college, marriage
and/or our relationship to consume our thoughts and actions . Other’s stay in
bad and harmful duo, subjecting and teaching not only themselves but their
children that this horrid example of man and woman is normal letting years of their
life just waste away.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div>
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be continued)<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-90994009423343592662012-05-14T02:18:00.001-04:002012-05-14T02:18:18.738-04:00Happy Mother's Day/ Time Goes By Part 1<br />
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Estrangelo Edessa"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span></span></i></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Estrangelo Edessa"; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%;">Well, another Sunday has gone
by and it’s Mother’s Day but not a word from my son who turns 30 years old
tomorrow. Where does the time go? It slips through our fingers just like flower
seeds in the spring and is as fleeting as their tender blossoms in the harsh
noonday sun. It is something we take for granted, complain about, sleep away,
wait endlessly, procrastinate on the most important decisions and waste it more
ways than the four winds blow.<o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Estrangelo Edessa"; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>When I was a child, summers seemed to last
forever. That’s because as children we filled every second of the day with
interactive play, games of rough and tumble, our first real friendships and
talk of dreams of our biggest lifetime plans. There were no game boys, x-boxes
and computers to waste our precious youth on. From the minute the sun rose and
we opened our sleepy but curious eyes, my sister and I were already playing and
making our childish, innocent plans to fill the day. Hurrying our breakfast to
get outside in the warm summer sun’s rays and create make believe villages out
of used, discarded refrigerator and washing machine boxes. Or we’d just walk a
miles to local candy store to spend our allowances on pop and penny candy. <o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div>
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be continued)<o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-77688330932490514852012-05-09T04:14:00.001-04:002012-05-09T04:14:33.835-04:00<br />
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<span style="color: #632423; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Diet is also important for healthy,
glowing, clear and younger looking skin. I’m not talking about a weight loss
diet but you may find yourself a little slimmer from taking these tips. Anyone
who follows a healthy diet or even practices a few easy changes and habits to
the way they eat will notice the overall mind and body health benefits from
these suggestions.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #632423; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>There are 7 simple steps to follow
when you want to get healthy and thereby have healthy, glowing and clear skin. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #632423; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: JanieHmkBold; mso-fareast-font-family: JanieHmkBold; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">1.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><span style="color: #632423; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;">Drink water – 8-10 ten oz. glasses a
day.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #632423; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: JanieHmkBold; mso-fareast-font-family: JanieHmkBold; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">2.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><span style="color: #632423; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;">Don’t drink alcohol – it’s mostly
sugar and poison.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #632423; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: JanieHmkBold; mso-fareast-font-family: JanieHmkBold; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">3.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><span style="color: #632423; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;">Don’t eat fast or prepackaged food –
too much fat, salt and preservatives = bad skin.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #632423; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: JanieHmkBold; mso-fareast-font-family: JanieHmkBold; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">4.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><span style="color: #632423; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;">Don’t add salt to food before you
eat – there’s already enough in it naturally.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #632423; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: JanieHmkBold; mso-fareast-font-family: JanieHmkBold; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">5.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><span style="color: #632423; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;">Don’t add sugar to drinks or food –
sugar is devastating to your skin.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #632423; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: JanieHmkBold; mso-fareast-font-family: JanieHmkBold; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">6.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><span style="color: #632423; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;">Exercise daily – use what muscles
you have.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #632423; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: JanieHmkBold; mso-fareast-font-family: JanieHmkBold; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">7.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";"> </span></span></span><span style="color: #632423; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;">Make sure you do your facial
exercises.<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="color: #632423; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;">This list
should not only give you beautiful skin, but you just may find yourself a few
pounds lighter.<o:p></o:p></span></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-85285310483762784832012-05-01T01:47:00.002-04:002012-05-01T01:50:23.517-04:00Beauty Skin Care Part 3<br />
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #943634; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 191;">Keeping the body well hydrated
is not only crucial for overall health but makes your skin glow, supple, plumps
up lines and wrinkles and clears pimples, whiteheads and blackheads! You should
drink at the very least 8-10 8oz. glasses a day but the more you drink the
better. If you are not used to drinking water, you may find yourself in the
bathroom more than usual. However, this will lessen over time as your body
adjusts to the change. Patience is key here so don’t give up! I drink a gallon
of water every day but of course I’ve been increasing slowly for many, many
years.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #943634; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Water flushes toxins from your body, cleaning
out your liver and kidneys. These are the two most important organs for filtering
your blood of toxins and an over amount of free radicals which cause cancer,
heart disease, diabetes, stroke, Alzheimer’s and premature aging among many
more. It is imperative to try and eat a healthy diet, to get some kind of regular
exercise and take a multivitamin with essential minerals along with the other
supplements previously mentioned every day. <o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #943634; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I’m not implying you follow a strict
diet and deviate from it. Quite the contrary, there are only a few simple rules
of thumb that will keep you healthier, slimmer and happier. And I will list
them for you.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #943634; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Century Schoolbook"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Century Schoolbook"; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">1.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #943634; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 191;">Don’t add salt to food
– there’s enough in it to begin with.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #943634; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Century Schoolbook"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Century Schoolbook"; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">2.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #943634; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 191;">Stay away from the
sugar bowl – each ordinary spoon has between 20 – 50 calories.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #943634; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Century Schoolbook"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Century Schoolbook"; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">3.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #943634; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 191;">Give up pop/soda
(sorry) not even the diet the sugar substitute just rots in your bowels, the
chemicals in it can’t be digested.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #943634; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Century Schoolbook"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Century Schoolbook"; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">4.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #943634; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 191;">Stop drinking alcohol
or significantly cut down – alcohol turns to sugar<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>once digested<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #943634; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-bidi-font-family: "Century Schoolbook"; mso-fareast-font-family: "Century Schoolbook"; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-list: Ignore;">5.<span style="font-size-adjust: none; font-stretch: normal; font: 7pt/normal "Times New Roman";">
</span></span></span></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #943634; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 191;">Don’t eat prepackaged
food unless it’s healthy choice or lean cuisine. Try to eat fresh foods only
prepared at home.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #943634; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 191;">(to be continued)<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-89707548905888055162012-04-23T02:13:00.002-04:002012-04-23T02:13:31.469-04:00<br />
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #17365d; font-family: CluffHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: text2; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span></span></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #17365d; font-family: CluffHmkBold; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: text2; mso-themeshade: 191;">First, there are vitamins, minerals, supplements and herbs you take orally
and use topically for healthier, more radiant, clearer and younger looking
skin. I buy mine online all from one website called “Puritan’s Pride”. They have
great prices and always offer buy one get one free on every product they sell. Once
a year they even have a super sale where they have buy one get TWO free.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #17365d; font-family: CluffHmkBold; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: text2; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Vitamin
A 1000mcg taken orally is especially helpful for fine lines and wrinkles. Vitamin
E 100mg not only combats sun damage but smoothes the skin and fights wrinkles.
Vitamin C 40-90mg topically and 500mg orally helps to make over 30 skin more
even toned from sun damage and aids in erasing deep wrinkles.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #17365d; font-family: CluffHmkBold; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: text2; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Collagen
is an important supplement in the anti-aging routine. It is the body’s own
building block in many internal bodily systems and will actually strengthen and
tighten the skin and strengthen the hair and nails. You can use it topically in
creams and orally at 1000mg 2-4 times a day. It is very effective in firming
the skin.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #17365d; font-family: CluffHmkBold; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: text2; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Selenium
is a super antioxidant and destroys free radicals in your body which play a
large part in sickness and aging. So it only stands to reason if you’re slowing
free radical damage you’re also slowing the aging process. Besides selenium has
skin building properties of it’s own. Alpha lipoic acid is another super
antioxidant with skin resurfacers and rejuvenators.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #17365d; font-family: CluffHmkBold; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: text2; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>There
are two supplements that help heal and control acne and breakouts. One is an
amino acid L-lysine which actually is healthy for all skin types but especially
calms and heals breakouts. The other is zinc and one should take 50mg a day for
less scarring, breakouts and blackheads.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #17365d; font-family: CluffHmkBold; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: text2; mso-themeshade: 191;">(to be continued)<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><strong><span style="color: #17365d;"><span style="font-family: Lucida Calligraphy;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Skin care is something that is crucial for the spinal cord injured and a subject I have discussed in the past. However, I would like to detail my skin tips for beautiful, healthy, younger looking and clear skin for anyone who desires it.</span></span></strong></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><strong><span style="color: #17365d;"><span style="font-family: Lucida Calligraphy;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I will be talking about topical treatments as well as supplements, vitamins, minerals and healthy eating and living habits. I’ll give you my favorite picks of over the counter beauty products, a special recipe for best body moisturizer ever, step by step instructions on how do neck and facial exercises and my own beauty secrets for shrinking pores, smoothing skin and safe sun practices. </span></span></strong></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><strong><span style="color: #17365d;"><span style="font-family: Lucida Calligraphy;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Not only is this information from years and years personal practical use, but also weeks of exhaustive research. Just so I give you the best skin care advice on the internet today. </span></span></strong></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><strong><span style="color: #17365d;"><span style="font-family: Lucida Calligraphy;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I rarely tell people my age but they always guess at least 15 years younger. And when I do tell them, they very surprised and always comment that I appear many years younger. Getting older is part of life but you don’t have to look your age and many women would rather appear more youthful. I can tell you how to just that. </span></span></strong></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><strong><span style="color: #17365d;"><span style="font-family: Lucida Calligraphy;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Many folks, men and women suffer from acne and breakout well into their adult years. There are also just as many things you can do to have clearer skin with less scars. I can share my knowledge on this subject as well. As with anti- aging regime, there are topical as well as supplements and vitamins you can take, lifestyle changes and many other of same methods previously discussed that will change your skin’s behavior thereby clearing it, calming it and helping heal old scars. I’ve been through this as well in my late 20’s and early to mid 30’s until I found the right combination of treatments.</span></span></strong></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><strong><span style="color: #17365d;"><span style="font-family: Lucida Calligraphy;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>So as this series of blogs continues, you may want to take notes or keep your printer ready. No matter your skin type, there is an answer for you! So get ready, get set, better more vibrant skin is just a few blogs away!</span></span></strong></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><strong><span style="color: #17365d;"><span style="font-family: Lucida Calligraphy;">(to be continued) <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></span></strong></span></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-70740594689846782412012-04-14T23:59:00.000-04:002012-04-14T23:59:50.910-04:00Feeling Depressed<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0d0d0d; font-family: "Book Antiqua","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: text1; mso-themetint: 242;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I’ve been feeling depressed and anxious lately and I’m having a hard time taking my own advice by feeling grateful for things I have, not procrastinating and letting go of worry.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0d0d0d; font-family: "Book Antiqua","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: text1; mso-themetint: 242;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I know very well the things I should be doing but I can’t seem to quiet my brain enough to think straight let alone meditate or pray. The best I can do to get through the din in my head is “Dear God, please help me!” I’m not sleeping at night, I force myself to eat, I’m feeling physically sick all the time and I’ve been in more pain. <o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #0d0d0d; font-family: "Book Antiqua","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: text1; mso-themetint: 242;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I see these words and think how disgusting, I’m actually whining! When I read them back to myself I’m reminded of every word I’ve written on the subject on the overcoming depression, anxiety and procrastination and I know what have to do. I’m going to go back through my blogs and read every sentence of advice and firsthand knowledge I’ve written about the subject AND I’m going to buckle down, swallow my pride and pray. Also, I don’t care what I have to do, short of taking too many meds, and getting some sleep.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></b></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-16085919599509802022012-04-09T18:26:00.000-04:002012-04-09T18:26:44.498-04:00Addiction and Alcoholism in the SCI The End<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #215868; font-family: "Futura Bk BT","sans-serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>The bottom line is you CAN get clean and/or sober if you’re willing and ready to take the step to do so. No one just happens to stumble upon the chance. Yes, addiction to drugs and/or alcohol is a disease and it’s not your fault that you have been stricken by it but it is your responsibility to choose recovery. I realize it’s a hard choice to make but there are only three ends to addiction: jails, institutions and death. But I could add a fourth and perhaps so could some of you…paralysis. <o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #215868; font-family: "Futura Bk BT","sans-serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>So I if anyone out there has a problem, please get help. Call your local chapter of AA/NA today. Don’t wait one more day…PLEASE.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #215868; font-family: "Futura Bk BT","sans-serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 128;">GOOD LUCK and God bless you and your journey.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></b></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-17161824068605118412012-04-08T03:35:00.001-04:002012-04-15T00:16:24.610-04:00Reply To Comment<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #5f497a; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent4; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>First, have you even bothered to read “My Story” which starts at the beginning of this lists of blogs back in 2010? It details everything I’ve been through since I became injured on March 26<sup>th</sup>, 2005, including two major affairs Eric had while I lay helpless paralyzed from the chest down with both hands paralyzed which used to take photos for magazines and create paintings that I sold all over the country? Before you step into God’s shoes and start judging a person who you don’t even know, you should at least get the most background information you possibly can. Even then what kind of person would encourage ANYONE to commit suicide? It is obvious to me that you have many unresolved issues of your own to lash out so viciously and violently at a fellow human being (and in my suspicion another woman) in the manner in which you did. I feel sorry for you if reading my blog is how you entertain yourself.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #5f497a; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent4; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>As far as modeling goes, I do this with special adaptive clothing made specifically for the handicapped. I want other women with SCI’s to know they too can still be alluring, sensual and special to their significant other and don’t have to wear moo moos and flannel pajamas if they don’t want to, that their injury has NOT diminished their ability to desirable. Besides, in my last photo shoot I wore a full length evening gown and in my next I’ll be wearing a little black dress and I’ll be changing into a specially made pair of jeans and my own design of a lovely long sleeve blouse with reinforced sleeves for added warmth because quadriplegics get cold easily. I work with a designer named Liz Callahan.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #5f497a; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent4; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>And another reader expressed concern about my internet relationship. Well, I’d like them to know it no longer exists. I stopped chatting with all strangers on the internet. I have neither time nor patience to meet people that way. Even though I don’t get out at all, I’d rather stay at home with Eric for the rest of my life than take my chances on someone that could be a serial killer. Although Eric has made it clear that he’ll never see me in an intimate way, there’s probably no chance we’ll ever make love again, he doesn’t even sleep next to me at night, or give me a deep kiss, I know he’s completely dedicated to me and loves me in a way that transcends sex. <o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #5f497a; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent4; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Even though I’m lonely and long for his touch and I’m not ready to give up that part of life and die an old woman who gave up making love in her 40’s, I suppose there are more important in life; like dedication, friendship, sacrifice and caring.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg0Zpnzu57nGwSzJFM7mJjFe5WdqG4IqclZl86bRK0ISCLeKV0g0msc6Y_wiTFL9SPBRnNv4FMOs0alETUfQ0f3s8sL7ogEPjR8CusxgYQWcR-3UY5tsJMGKbuzw6rBhEraOlDmacNbqk0/s1600/sweet+madame+blue+c.+mm.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="193" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg0Zpnzu57nGwSzJFM7mJjFe5WdqG4IqclZl86bRK0ISCLeKV0g0msc6Y_wiTFL9SPBRnNv4FMOs0alETUfQ0f3s8sL7ogEPjR8CusxgYQWcR-3UY5tsJMGKbuzw6rBhEraOlDmacNbqk0/s320/sweet+madame+blue+c.+mm.JPG" width="320" /></a></div><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #5f497a; font-family: "Century Schoolbook","serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent4; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Now, as far as me being a “junkie” and a “whore” when you throw around words like that you definitely have problems of your own. If I say I was an alcoholic for 20 years and finally got sober but now I take pain meds because I broke my neck and use them as prescribed, that’s a fact. I have no reason write a blog with the mission to help others and waste my time making up lies. As far as I’m concerned a person that would leave that kind scathing comment is not only mentally and emotionally disturbed but just plain jealous. Which is ridiculous because if you’d rather be paralyzed from the chest down then by all means go for it. You, my dear, are the miserable one, dissatisfied with your own life. I published your comment just to see what my other readers would think but I won’t publish anymore hate mail so don’t bother. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></b></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-17006202263645553222012-04-06T02:03:00.000-04:002012-04-06T02:03:14.898-04:00Addiction and Alcoholism in the SCI 7<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="color: #632423; font-family: CluffHmkBold; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;">If you can’t decide to whether or not to go to a meeting consider the last time you went through withdrawal. If you’ve never been experienced the hellish nightmare of withdrawal I can tell you firsthand it’s a process you want to avoid. <o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="color: #632423; font-family: CluffHmkBold; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>First, comes the panic of the realization that you’ve run out. Despite the promises you made to yourself that THIS time you would use less and make it to end of your prescription or until your next paycheck. Whatever reasonable excuse you have for running short doesn’t matter now because now you can look forward to at least a week of a running nose, sneezing, itching, craving, shaking, hot and cold sweats, nausea, vomiting and the worse diarrhea you can think of. I hate to get too graphic but on or about third day your bowels will turn to water. it won’t matter what you take, nothing will stop it. You’ll want to sleep but sleep won’t come.<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="color: #632423; font-family: CluffHmkBold; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 128;">(to be continued) <o:p></o:p></span></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-12356635564028049312012-03-29T00:42:00.001-04:002012-03-29T01:00:52.707-04:00Addiction and Alcoholism in the SCI 6<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: "Lucida Handwriting"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I’ve been in 6 rehabs for alcohol addiction and been to more meetings than I can possibly count and I couldn’t stay sober for very long until my psychiatrist put me in what’s call a “dual diagnosis” center. <o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: "Lucida Handwriting"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>A dual diagnosis facility helps you deal with not only your addiction but your psychological issues at the same time. When you are able to on work both problems simultaneously your chances of staying clean and sober are much better because if you are depressed, obsessive, compulsive, prone to anxiety or panic or in any way psychotic it is almost impossible to stay clean and sober even if you’re going to meetings and following the 12 steps. Some of us need medication and therapy.<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: "Lucida Handwriting"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Now, it is true that some people in group at the meeting will protest and insist that you’re not REALLY clean because you take meds but there are more and more people who attend who are on some type of psychological treatment so you don’t have to feel self conscious. <o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: "Lucida Handwriting"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>AA and NA work in several ways. First, it’s the fellowship of other alcoholics and addicts. For the first time in life your life, it feels you’re with people who truly understand you and your struggle. Most veteran members will go out of their way to try and make you feel welcome and comfortable. There are even members who will help you with transportation, a place to live or food to eat. No matter how low down your addiction got you there will be someone who has story worse than or just as bad as yours. <span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Here is one place you won’t judged, ridiculed or lectured. Some of the newcomers just like you may say some stupid or condescending things but they haven’t learned or practiced the principles of the program long enough to give the best advice. That’s why it’s a good idea to listen and stay close to veterans in the group. It’s also important to find a sponsor, someone who can guide and mentor you as you begin your journey into the steps. But that comes later.<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: "Lucida Handwriting"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>If you want to do some reading about either or both programs there two main books that are indispensible to learning all about the 12 step program, they are the AA Big Book and the NA Basic Text. These books not only explain the steps and principles in detail, but contain basic information about staying clean and sober, history of the program and stories submitted by real alcoholics and addicts. They are free at every meeting. Or I’m certain you could have one sent to by your local chapter.<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: "Lucida Handwriting"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;">(to be continued) <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-6359432492468896972012-03-26T01:21:00.000-04:002012-03-26T01:21:12.412-04:00Addiction and Alcoholism in the SCI 5<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="color: #c00000; font-family: "Britannic Bold","sans-serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;">Even if you’re lucky enough to find a doctor, make up an imaginary and debilitating pain, you NEED to keep him so you wrack your brain trying to say only the right things. When the time comes, which it will, when you need an increase, you try to be delicate yet desperate.<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="color: #c00000; font-family: "Britannic Bold","sans-serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>All of these things I’ve talked about give you a very poor quality of life and not at all good for your compromised health. It’s time to get some help right away. Call a rehabilitation center. If you have no insurance, you’ve got to get a meeting. You can choose either 12 step program, AA – Alcoholics Anonymous or NA – Narcotics Anonymous. If you’ve never heard of them or know very little about how they work, I’ve had extensive experience with both programs and can explain in detail how it works.<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="color: #c00000; font-family: "Britannic Bold","sans-serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>For example, a 12 step program is just that. It is based on 12 consecutive steps designed not only to help you overcome your addiction to drugs or alcohol but to teach you a brand new way of thinking and living. it would be a beneficial philosophy for anyone to live by. I must say it changed my life and way seeing the world around and inside me. I would recommend it to it to a person who never touched a drop of alcohol or smoked so much as one marijuana cigarette.<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="color: #c00000; font-family: "Britannic Bold","sans-serif"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;">(to be continued)<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-74643713352410602642012-03-22T01:05:00.000-04:002012-03-22T01:05:16.609-04:00Addiction and Alcoholism in the SCI 4<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #984806; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 128;">Not only do you keep lowering your standards, but you come up with reasons to convince yourself that this will be definitely, positively be the last time and your excuses are completely valid. You’re not thinking about the consequences or the things you’re doing to get your fix. <o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #984806; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>These are the things that happen when that inevitable day comes when you use all medication before the next refill is due and you go through the hell of withdrawal. If you’ve never experienced it please let me explain. First, you get depressed because your brain is no longer getting the serotonin you’ve been artificially giving it and it has forgotten how to produce the chemical on it’s own. Then, you begin to feel nauseated, start to feel antsy, jittery and achy. Later on you really get sick, with hot and cold sweats, diarrhea, body aches and vomiting. You know if you had a pill or whatever you’d feel better but you’re too sick to go looking or you’re not at that point yet. <o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #984806; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Sooner or later though, the withdrawal will drive you to that decision to find something to stop the hell. Addiction sucks. As a victim of SCI, it’s not hard to find to another doctor or a pain center.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>But you always have to watch how much you’re using ihv case the pain clinic wants you wants you to bring in your remainder of your pills.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #984806; font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent6; mso-themeshade: 128;">(to be continued)<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="color: #403152; font-family: "Carmine Tango"; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent4; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></i></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #403152; font-family: "Carmine Tango"; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent4; mso-themeshade: 128;"><o:p></o:p></span></b></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-17785945854092852832012-03-15T22:48:00.001-04:002012-04-15T00:10:01.246-04:00Addiction and Alcoholism in the SCI 3<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgHVZAsvAwI6Y_ZiYfsuqngIIKHrJkZh4Heb6sLYWdR1Lng04R_yOZl5Y5KIT4pBH_qEqO7D7QZ2VPzO7ukxmGIWutDp2zxiilsSpMTFLzi6axQMmiNECwbrTz5iBu52tlXrwTnhERwmDs/s1600/elegance+c.+mm.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgHVZAsvAwI6Y_ZiYfsuqngIIKHrJkZh4Heb6sLYWdR1Lng04R_yOZl5Y5KIT4pBH_qEqO7D7QZ2VPzO7ukxmGIWutDp2zxiilsSpMTFLzi6axQMmiNECwbrTz5iBu52tlXrwTnhERwmDs/s320/elegance+c.+mm.JPG" width="244" /></a></div><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #403152; font-family: "Carmine Tango"; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent4; mso-themeshade: 128;">I still fought off my disease for a few more years but I finally got and stayed sober. I haven’t had a drink since.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #403152; font-family: "Carmine Tango"; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent4; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>After my injury, there was a lot of pain but I never abused my medication or went back to drinking. I had finally beat my addictive tendencies. I was lucky to have had insurance through my work. It made me glad to have the ability to pay with insurance I actually worked to get. But I had to take a second leave of absence and ultimately resign from my position as regional manager and go on disability.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #403152; font-family: "Carmine Tango"; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent4; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Many victims of SCI’s have excruciating pain and turn to alcohol or prescribed medications to help deal with the pain, depression, shock and grief of their of loss life as they knew it. Lots start innocently with a pain medication that they inevitably build a tolerance to over time and need more just to control the pain but find they enjoy the high. It helps them forget the horror their lives have now become and find ways and means of abusing the prescription. I’ve known some SCI victims who have turned to drinking instead, really putting their already compromised health further in danger. Not to mention putting their fragile emotional and psychological state at great risk for breakdown. <o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #403152; font-family: "Carmine Tango"; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent4; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>This is one of reasons why I write my blog; to try and boost the self esteem, worth, image and confidence of the SCI. But once addicted an individual needs helps to stop. There is no is such thing as “will power” when it goes this far. The addict/alcoholic is CONVINCED he/she can quit on his/her own at any time and swears every time will be the last. No matter how much they take it’s never enough and soon they find themselves running out of their meds before their next refill or spending more money than they have in their budget and making every justification in the meantime. For some reason, it’s not hard to talk into yourself into using when you know you shouldn’t with excuses that sound perfectly reasonable at the time. Afterward you feel so guilty, weak, stupid and bad you just want to do the thing that makes you feel good. It’s a vicious cycle that seems to have no end.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #403152; font-family: "Carmine Tango"; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent4; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>If you’re physically addicted, like I was to alcohol, you NEED to use or get physically sick. A hangover is alcohol withdrawal. That’s why people have “hair of dog of that bit me”, or a morning drink. I did this for many years. I always made CERTAIN I had booze for next day because I knew I’d be sick if I didn’t. I never thought I’d do this, I never thought I’d do a lot of things. That’s how addiction works; you slowly but surely one by one check off the things you thought you’d never do until there’s none left to lower yourself to and your self esteem is in the toilet.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #403152; font-family: "Carmine Tango"; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent4; mso-themeshade: 128;">(to be continued) <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></i><o:p></o:p></span></b></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-79002677641407521492012-03-13T03:09:00.001-04:002012-03-13T22:35:29.047-04:00Addiction and Alcoholism in the SCI 2<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="color: #0f243e; font-family: CluffHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: text2; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I went to this partial program for almost 4 years but slipped backed into drinking and off my psych meds time and time again. I would end up back in the psychiatric hospital a dozen times before my psychiatrist put me in a “dual diagnosis” center to work on BOTH my alcoholism and mental and emotional disorders. Thank God it worked. However, I still went to AA meetings for years afterward to stay sober…and I did for four years. </span></div><br />
<span style="color: #0f243e; font-family: CluffHmkBold; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: text2; mso-themeshade: 128;">To be continued<o:p></o:p></span>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-30301163454567692852012-03-11T05:00:00.000-04:002012-03-11T05:00:47.030-04:00Addiction and Alcoholism in the SCI<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh1eYDhK_2ajaeRLagmmUt3ciYIEzTOUN06q6oOJxssfA6il90g4szT_5wNvTwe8203zXoe-xyrlb3ujl7pQfJbrdd_ik_2nNVs2PpKe49p3Cq9DAyGepsjGOXKZOEq8LepUt2MWB6Qwvo/s1600/Mysterious+.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh1eYDhK_2ajaeRLagmmUt3ciYIEzTOUN06q6oOJxssfA6il90g4szT_5wNvTwe8203zXoe-xyrlb3ujl7pQfJbrdd_ik_2nNVs2PpKe49p3Cq9DAyGepsjGOXKZOEq8LepUt2MWB6Qwvo/s320/Mysterious+.JPG" width="320" /></a></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: "Lucida Handwriting"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Alcoholism and Addiction among the spinal injured are problems that can’t and shouldn’t be ignored. There is so much depression, despair, anxiety and pain after an injury it isn’t difficult to turn to alcohol and/or abuse prescribed medications. This is especially true if the victim of the SCI has a history, predisposition or genetic makeup for addiction.<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: "Lucida Handwriting"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Before I was injured, I had a very troubled childhood that included an alcoholic father and an extremely codependent mother who after divorcing my father for raping my older half sister, raised the 5 of us in an atmosphere of guilt and shame. Although my father beat her mercilessly and kidnapped me at age 3 ½ for 3 weeks and molested me before my mother could find me, she never hit us. She controlled our behavior instead with guilt trips and shame based innuendo. My mother nor I never knew I had been sexually abused until I was in was therapy 3 years for severe depression, anxiety and advanced alcoholism.<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: "Lucida Handwriting"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I began therapy after my drinking started affected my work and career at age 28. I entered an intensive outpatient treatment program called a “partial program” because I attended 4 days a week 4 hours a day. They offered one on one, group, occupational and a special “feelings” therapy.<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: "Lucida Handwriting"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;">(to be continued)<o:p></o:p></span></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-56517537228947523082012-03-09T02:01:00.000-05:002012-03-09T02:01:44.454-05:00Guilt and Fear Part<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #5f497a; font-family: CaslonAntT; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent4; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Remember my post where I had the problem I didn’t know what I going to about? Well, thank God Eric got sick of it as well and looks likes everything is going to work itself out. However, now I have new problem. My doctor at the pain clinic is changing my medication after 4 years of being on the same thing and I’m very anxious that it won’t work.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #5f497a; font-family: CaslonAntT; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent4; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I always took ten 8mg dilaudid a day for pain. Now they want to cut my dilaudid down to 120 pills from 300 and give me some form of long acting dilaudid instead. Here’s the problem,<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I’ve NEVER<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>taken a long acting pill that helps my pains, not EVER! It seems like no matter what type of medication or how long it’s supposed to work, I need another dose in 4-6 hours. With only 120 breakthrough pills and I simply won’t have enough regular dilaudid to get by. I’m going to call the pain clinic tomorrow. My panic level is simply too high and its hell living your life in pain. I refuse to do it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></b></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-39154290644361396742012-02-28T18:29:00.000-05:002012-02-28T18:29:04.574-05:00Childhood Trauma Part 5<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 115%;">The most tragic result of what happens as a result of childhood trauma is the abused or neglected child becomes an abuser him or herself. A vicious cycle is now in place, a new family tradition. Sometimes this goes on for generations and becomes so ingrained it seems normal to them. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></i></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I know a family who lives nearby where there the father raped his own daughter and got her pregnant. She gave birth to her in son but always called him and treated him like a brother because her mother stepped in and insisted. He grew up to be a child molester and she went insane. They wander around the neighborhood trying to make friends with people but they are stigmatized by their past and choices in life. Choices certainly made as a direct result of their horrendous childhoods. <o:p></o:p></span></i></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Now granted, these two stories are definitely not the norm but if you really think about it many people have suffered some type of childhood trauma and must resolve it no matter how late in life. <o:p></o:p></span></i></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: JanieHmkBold; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I’ve already discussed keeping a journal, writing you’re your story and expressing all your feelings on paper. But this is not enough. You must share this painful information with a professional, a group set up just for this type thing or a trusted friend. The worst thing we can do is keep this information buried even if we were conditioned to do so. I had to do it even though it took me 30 years and finally I was able to begin healing. It took a long time and lot of work and I think it depends on what kind trauma, how long it lasts and the type of personality you have to begin with. But no one is superman or wonder woman and we all need help getting past these personal hells. Good luck to all who must take this step.<o:p></o:p></span></i></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-15647395273023498652012-02-24T15:52:00.000-05:002012-02-24T15:52:25.716-05:00Childhood Trauma Part 4<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Bradley Hand ITC"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;">Maybe you are perfectly happy and satisfied with your life and somehow you were able to put your childhood trauma behind you. If so, you are one of the few individuals who was able to get through it with sheer determination to do so.<o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Bradley Hand ITC"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Some grow up having been conditioned to never talk about it. I know a woman who was brutally sexually abused by her step father and mercilessly beaten and terribly psychologically abused by her step mother. Her half sister who briefly befriended her ended up turning on her as well. After this poor girl was being forced into unspeakable sexual acts, which often included her brother, since age 12, her half sister finally found out and was mortified. Thinking she was helping her adopted sister, she told her mother what was happening. The woman’s mother blamed the helpless teenager and took to calling her “the little whore”. This traumatized woman left home as soon as she graduated high school and married a violent, angry man who beat her and further stripped her of what little self esteem she had left. She is now living with a former heroine abuser who has been in a methadone clinic for almost 10 years and has hepatitis C. a deadly liver virus that IS sexually transmitted. This man does not work, controls her every movement, is extraordinarily self centered and selfish and she works 52 hours a week to support them. How much self esteem, worth, image and confidence can she possibly have to put herself in these types of relations? <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;"><span style="font-family: "Bradley Hand ITC"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;">(to be continued) <o:p></o:p></span></i></b></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-86307206205817101602012-02-21T23:58:00.001-05:002012-02-22T00:14:12.381-05:00Childhood Trauma Part 3<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #215868; font-family: "Lucida Handwriting"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I have kept a diary since I was 13 years old when my mother bought me one those little locking diaries that didn’t really work. After I finally found out, much to my dismay, that she had been reading it, I booby trapped it and wrote everything in code. But being so young and naïve I had no idea that just taking out the vowels of each word was not enough until my younger sister, who also enjoyed breaking into it, told me it was simple to figure out what I was writing. It was just another violation to me by the people I trusted and loved the most.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #215868; font-family: "Lucida Handwriting"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>However, for some reason it didn’t sway me from journaling and kept writing and still do. So I know 1<sup>st</sup> hand it helps you deal with and resolve your issues. <o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #215868; font-family: "Lucida Handwriting"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 128;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Perhaps you don’t suffer from panic or anxiety. Maybe your personality took a turn in another direction. You could be a the over achiever, the perfectionist always striving for a better career, a better car, a better house, and feel like nothing is wrong is with your life. You rose above it all, put it all behind you and became a successful, productive member of society. You married an upstanding individual, had a couple of children <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>and work is your life. But are you happy?<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #215868; font-family: "Lucida Handwriting"; font-size: 12pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent5; mso-themeshade: 128;">(to be continued)<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-81980369418140896362012-02-18T00:11:00.000-05:002012-02-18T00:11:22.739-05:00Hospitalized<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I’m sorry I haven’t been on in awhile but I’ve been very ill. I had a temperature of 103 degrees, blood pressure of 70/40 and pulse of 153. I had it 83 degrees in my room, was wearing my warm pajamas, shivering and shaking uncontrolabllly and was still so cold it was if I was out in 10 below weather. I was hospitalized for 2 weeks. I had unexplained blood poisoning. I’m home now but still not myself. I can’t keep my bp up without medication and I’m nauseated after I eat. I’m worried about my health.<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>So please forgive my short post and how late it is. I will tell you things have settled down somewhat around here although there is still cause for concern and worry. But if I can keep close watch things, especially Eric, and exercise some self control, I may be able get to through this unscathed…we’ll see. <o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I don’t know if I told you I got new a kitty! His name is Frodo and he is a 10 week old tabby with wonderful playful, affection and rambunctious personality. When my Cochise, my 16 year old year tabby died 1 ½ ago, I never thought I’d get over it and it took me this long to replace him. My 2 other boys are pretty upset though. 12 year Bilbo and 10 year old Jasper absolutely won’t accept him yet and we’ve had him for 2 weeks now. Oh well, hopefully they’ll eventually warm up to him.<o:p></o:p></span></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><span style="font-family: "Comic Sans MS"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Well friends, I’m still feeling under the weather so I’m gonna go but I promise to talk to you sooner than I have been. You all have a goodnight and good day!<o:p></o:p></span></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiYFgR4bA-ql9TuycBOTxH2b3ywO_kUEYVEn2gUd2cPXrIGpWFMVb_dnAf1eyQQz3EM3I9D7Z4SjH1X9rFomAnAsWdAoXrU1Esvfeta_Ljv5M8CH9wLq0ij7sGxxVowkW31dEwjA257sgA/s1600/Copy+of+frodo+on+the+potty+.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="285" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiYFgR4bA-ql9TuycBOTxH2b3ywO_kUEYVEn2gUd2cPXrIGpWFMVb_dnAf1eyQQz3EM3I9D7Z4SjH1X9rFomAnAsWdAoXrU1Esvfeta_Ljv5M8CH9wLq0ij7sGxxVowkW31dEwjA257sgA/s320/Copy+of+frodo+on+the+potty+.JPG" width="320" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgVwB5fbLdvgAjNUKPMUyTZfCC2IemHBFEXJ0Teay2IaEmT42fs_ZHnV6zYnM64Fob_vPY8-J68G6qOyyMFY9LQWOawOCifJ64XdKA-8UOn_gEoc31IUppkfAVFSOwn6nXv_5JlVj56zLw/s1600/afternoon+snooze+c.+mm.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgVwB5fbLdvgAjNUKPMUyTZfCC2IemHBFEXJ0Teay2IaEmT42fs_ZHnV6zYnM64Fob_vPY8-J68G6qOyyMFY9LQWOawOCifJ64XdKA-8UOn_gEoc31IUppkfAVFSOwn6nXv_5JlVj56zLw/s320/afternoon+snooze+c.+mm.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />
<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiCj1HAIoqBlF1c15dBqirsYo_nu7A539PEEG8K7Pja1IEw82Xi87SBRzdqa1gCXP0Dcsq6556YH8_pkKdqFo6oUicMjqP6OauVxgi2AAUMUg1UAP-sTtkiUX5YNCFccxyyCDNB8JP1ac0/s1600/DSCF3043.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiCj1HAIoqBlF1c15dBqirsYo_nu7A539PEEG8K7Pja1IEw82Xi87SBRzdqa1gCXP0Dcsq6556YH8_pkKdqFo6oUicMjqP6OauVxgi2AAUMUg1UAP-sTtkiUX5YNCFccxyyCDNB8JP1ac0/s320/DSCF3043.JPG" width="320" /></a></div> queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-53807891555966823562012-02-04T00:21:00.000-05:002012-02-04T00:21:17.947-05:00Guilt<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt; text-indent: 0.5in;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #5f497a; font-family: "Lucida Handwriting"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent4; mso-themeshade: 191;">I’m sorry to break away from the subject at hand but I’m very depressed. I wish I could come right out and tell you what is bothering me so profoundly but I can’t bring myself to do that just yet. Let’s just say I’m feeling so trapped in a situation that causes me so much guilt and fear my stomach is constantly filled with remorseful nausea. It’s something that Eric decided to do and now I’m inevitably caught up in it.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #5f497a; font-family: "Lucida Handwriting"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent4; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>His justifications all seem sound and his methods are impeccable. But the bottom line is that the act in and of itself is so distasteful it’s causing me tremendous grief. I don’t know what to do because as right now I’m caught between a rock and a hard place. The only time I feel good about it is immediately after the act itself. Even then I begin to worry about the “what if’s”. I don’t want to be a part of it but this month I’m pretty much forced to. I can’t wait until things are back to normal. That won’t be for about 2 weeks. <o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #5f497a; font-family: "Lucida Handwriting"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent4; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>After that I have choice to make. Hopefully, I make the right one.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3304959951105245563.post-84089256728461024902012-01-30T03:00:00.000-05:002012-01-30T03:00:36.018-05:00Childhood Trauma Part 2<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #943634; font-family: "Brush Script MT"; font-size: 14pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span></span></b><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #943634; font-family: "Brush Script MT"; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 191;">If you don’t allow yourself to get angry at the person or persons to whom you feel are responsible for keeping you safe and free from fear as a child, you cannot put the past behind you and develop properly into adulthood. You will have trouble with relationships and with making and maintaining friendships. You’ll find yourself in a relationship but it will be an unhealthy one. And you’ll probably be in it for years getting sicker and sicker and losing more of your self esteem every day. <span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #943634; font-family: "Brush Script MT"; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 191;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Be certain to write down ALL your feelings about that time in your life. Another big feeling that lingers on is fear. Many adults who experienced childhood trauma suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. If you don’t what a panic attack is it feels as if your heart is pounding out of your chest, you’re shaking all over, you start to hyperventilate and every little thing seems overwhelming. Sometimes they last for minutes and other times for hours. This is no way to live.<o:p></o:p></span></b></div><br />
<div class="MsoNormal" style="margin: 0in 0in 10pt;"><b style="mso-bidi-font-weight: normal;"><span style="color: #943634; font-family: "Brush Script MT"; font-size: 16pt; line-height: 115%; mso-themecolor: accent2; mso-themeshade: 191;">(to be continued)<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span><o:p></o:p></span></b></div>queenquadhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09875188954438253463noreply@blogger.com0