Wednesday, November 30, 2011
I’m so bored lately I’m about to go out of my mind. It’s the same old routine day in and day out. I haven’t left my room for days. All I do is get on the computer and never get off unless I’m sleeping. I sincerely apologize for not posting but I think I’m suffering from some seasonal depression.
I think I’m gaining weight which upsets me greatly. I’m still having trouble with my belly blowing up and not going back down. It’s driving me mad. I have every symptom of an under active thyroid but I don’t know which way to go with my medicine. I tried increasing the dose and the problems got worse so I guess I’ll try reducing the medication. I wish something would work.
Eric and I fight all the time. I just can’t seem to make him happy. Everything I do pisses him off. I wish we could go back in time and I could change everything that’s happened in the last seven years. Actually, I’d have to go back 10 years to make it alright. But it’s fruitless to think like that and I know that I can only go forward never back.
I need to have a serious talk with Kristi, one of my attendants. I interviewed a new person for her position due to her lack of reliability and work ethic. Even though she’s been with me for well over a year, I feel like as though I can’t count on her, especially in the winter when she calls off if there is the slightest chance of snow. The new woman I interviewed seemed capable, reliable and willing to work. I need someone I can count on but I’m not looking forward to talking to Kristi about giving her notice. That’s why I’ve procrastinated all week and I MUST call her on Thursday so I can let the new employee know if she’s starting this week or next or not for two weeks. I don’t relish this phone call and wish we could have this talk face to face.
Well, that’s it for me for tonight. I’m falling asleep in my wheelchair and still have other things to do, so goodnight friends and sleep well.